Chapter 873: Trust and Distrust (5)Go or not?
Hui Ling was stunned when Nan Hua asked the question to him. All this time, he was forced by Nan Hua to stay in this area and couldn''t leave. If he ever tried to leave, someone will definitely block him.
But this time, Nan Hua actually asked him?
"You''re a human being, so decide for yourself." Nan Hua looked at Hui Ling deeply and then turned around.
She felt that she was back to her previous life for some time when she was with Hui Ling. After the brutal selection where only the strong could stay alive in that ind, they were trained formally.
After all, the organization wouldn''t want them to be wild children who knew nothing of the world.
They needed agents, assassins, tools who could blend and be used and not just some killing maniac who couldn''t even control their strength. That selection was simply to eliminate those who were too weak to be used.
Nan Hua had a teacher.
And that teacher was also the one who taught her to be a human. Being only five years old when she lived in that ind, Nan Hua knew that her worldview would have long been crooked to the point where she couldn''t live in the society.
It was thanks to this training that she could live outside.
Being treated as a human is the first step to step outside.
But it was very unfortunate….
There were simply no methods for her to escape from that hell. No matter what she wanted or tried to do, they would be able to bring her back.
Repeated torture that exhausted her physically and mentally, she was then dealt thest blow with that order to kill the only person she ever trusted greatly. Since then, her desire to leave had almost extinguished.
Would there be people out there who were worthy of her trust?
Why should she trust someone else only to be betrayed in the end?
The pain in her heart crushed almost everything Nan Hua had known. And some other ''tools'' children in that ce even turned crazy after thest test because they couldn''t stand it anymore.
Only if they froze their heart would they be able to stand and live.
Even if they didn''t know why they should live.
Their instinct was telling them to stay strong and stepped forward. Some of them tried to believe that there might be hope in the future.
But that hope never appeared.
Just like walking in the abyss where everywhere you look and walk, all there is was nothing more than darkness.
And when she finally grew up to be the number one, her desire to get out had long been exhausted. She had already walked around the world, meeting various people for her missions, and understood that she was just a person without a ce to belong to.
She just did what she was supposed to do.
Her life had long lost its meaning.
And when she came to this world, this little desire that was about to bepletely extinguished was slowly reignited.
She wanted to live.
She wanted to be the one in control of her fate and truly be a human being.
Someone who was not a tool.
Someone who was not forced to do things.
Someone who had a ce where she belongs.
She had these all now and slowly, her greed was growing. She wanted more, exploring the world, seeing new things, experiencing the world, and naturally achieved her goals in this life one by one.
This is just the first step.
First step to make sure that no one could control her life''s direction anymore and protected the people around her whom she had grown to care.
The road is still long and Nan Hua would tread each step carefully in her own way.
"Take your time." Si Mo Fan looked at Nan Hua''s back and then turned his head away to look at Hui Ling. "We''ll not leave directly."
He had some feelings that Nan Hua''s state was disturbed even for a brief moment. And even though he didn''t dare to investigate about Nan Hua deeply, what he knew about Nan Hua''s life experience didn''t match Nan Hua''s current ability.
There had to be something.
But Si Mo Fan will never try to dig it.
If Nan Hua wanted to tell them, she would tell them. And if she didn''t want to, he will never pry and try to figure out her secret on his own. He''s her subordinate and Si Mo Fan will not overstep what he was allowed to do.
"Go and have some rest. Even if you want to leave today, no one will stop you." Si Mo Fan waved his hand and walked away leisurely.
Hui Ling stood there.
He had a nk expression on his face.
What should he do?
What did he want to do?
This was the first time he realized that choices were very difficult to make.
Many times in the past, he would only have one choice in his life and couldn''t do anything else. With his qualification, what can he actually do?
But this was different.
Should he walk on his own?
Hui Ling turned around to look at the vastnd behind him.
He was not restricted by the vige where he used to stay anymore. And with the basic manners that Si Mo Fan taught him, he would be able to survive on his own even if he didn''t follow them.
But this was what made him conflicted.
Being treated so well by them, he knew that he had no worth.
And he had heard of that Dark Moon Organization. It was an assassin organization that was famous in this area.
Being able to meet them was his fortune.
And at the same time, he knew that even if he wanted to stay, he would be bound to be used by these people to work for Dark Moon Organization.