Chapter 0039


    Chapter 0039


    His avoidance of me shouldn''t hurt, it''s been like this my whole life. He only talks to me when he


    absolutely has to in front of other high ranking wolves for appearance. But, every time he outwardly


    and tantly rejected me I felt that familiar jab in my heart and all of my insecurities would haunt me


    for days after.


    I became more obsessed with training and school work, avoiding people, including Sierra and my


    brother after that interaction shortly after the christmas holiday. Something they both noticed and


    questioned and I expertly avoided talking about. My room and anything I used in the house had to


    be spotless and metlculously put away. The sad part is am fully aware of what I''m doing and why,


    but I can''t help myself and I can''t go to anyone for help. How would that make my dad look in the


    eyes of his peers? The peers he''s been putting on a show for my whole existence.


    Ruining his reputation would make the emotional hell I have been going throughpletely


    worthless and I don''t need to feel anymore like an unwanted problem. And as much as I should be


    mad at him or hate him, I just can''t bring myself to make him look bad, hoping one day he will wake


    up and notice all the hard work and effort I put in to please him, to make him happy, proud of me. As


    long as there is that scrap of a chance, I will hold onto that hope. It took several days


    for Sierra to pull me, mostly, out of the obsessive behavior. Really, I think I just got better at hiding it


    from her.


    I shake my head out of the dark memories and keep working on the breakfast spread. I really do


    like having Sierra and all the guys here. I find I enjoy caring for the group as a whole. They make


    meugh and forget about all the things I normally focus on everyday. I actually feel like a teenager


    during this time and I find I have rxed into the friendships the longer I am around all of them. My


    dad''s demands don''t exist, Kaley and her bully patrol doesn''t exist, schoolwork doesn''t exist. It''s


    almost magical.


    The front door ms, I jump and I look at the time. It''s not quite Sam and I''m not even halfway intoN?velDrama.Org: text ? owner.


    prepping all the food. What the hell is going on? Themotion in the hallway tells me it''s at least a


    few of the guys. Their sounds are pretty distinct. I start to walk out to tell them to be quiet, I haven''t


    even gotten Mateo up yet and my dad will actually be pissed at the ruckus this early. I slowly walk


    down the hallway and into the entrp.''ay.


    "Guys? What ar-"


    "SURPRISE!" A whole group of people shout at me.


    "Oh I yelled and then pped my hand over my mouth as I''m trying not to fall on my butt in front of


    everyone.


    Sierra ran up to me first, catching me in a hug. "A little birdie told me It was your birthday today and


    we thought we would surprise you. We brought breakfast, I hope you haven''t already started


    cooking." She steps back and takes in my running clothes. I don''t usually shower or change since


    we go and workout with the pups, which leaves us disgusting.


    "Um, uh, I just started getting things together." I am super confused and disoriented. We don''t


    celebrate my birthday, never have. It''s the day my mom died, the day I killed her, and that is the only


    part my dad remembers about today. Mateo used to make me cards when we were little. He would


    never sign them or say anything about it, but I knew it was him. Once we hit about eleven though


    and he started focusing on his position, those stopped.


    "Um,e on in, we can set it up on the ind." I led the group down the hall and stood off to the


    side watching the paradee into the kitchen.


    Mateoes strolling in with the rest of the guys. He was a part of this? Did he tell them? I can feel


    my heart tighten at the thought. Then all the adultse through. Alpha Lucas and Luna Ava have


    2rge tters of fruit and pastries, Cam and Dakota are each carrying a tray of food. Gamma Brett


    follows Oliver in with a veryrge pan that is steaming. Delta Kyle and Gwene in ahead of Sam


    and they are all carrying balloons and a vase of flowers. Sierra''s Aunt


    Stephanie and Uncle Robert bring up the rear with another steaming pan.