Chapter 0061


    Chapter 0061


    Anything they say now to try and make me feel better is strictly to ease their own conscience. I


    didn''t trust them to take care of me in a real moment of need when they didn''t take care of me in


    day to day things.


    I know my ce, have always known it, and now they are blurring those lines making it hard to keep


    my distance and keep myself from getting hurt. I can handle the physical pain from my bullies and


    training, I knowhow to heal from that, but the emotional pain that has been going on my whole life, I


    don''t know how to deal with that, so I kept my distance. I want to continue to keep my distance, but


    my wolf is right, we need our pack, or a pack


    "Is that why you ran? You run away everytime the focus is on you." Oliver asks, leaning forward,


    elbows on his-lees.


    Sam is keeping a runningmentary for Sierra. I can tell she is upset that I won''t shift back to talk


    to them. My wolf is at least intimidating enough to keep them away. I don''t want anyone trying to


    come close or embrace me.


    They don''t get to be sorry for all the things they ignored in the past, because they feel bad now. My


    friend doesn''t deserve this treatment and I would talk to her directly if I could, but I am holding out. I


    still have no reason to show them any kind of emotion and I can stay stoic in my wolf''s form. She


    can choose to forgive meter or just keep the distance and let me go like everyone else.


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    "Can we jump back really quick to the part where she shifted at thirteen? That''s incredible Skr!


    Your wolf must be really special for you to shift so young. I still haven''t shifted yet."


    Sierra looks at me. understand why the guys shifted early and at the same time too. You are all


    really close and have a tight knit group and to top it off you are all high ranking wolves taking on


    your positions and training to be the next leaders. It makes sense that your wolves woulde out


    and help you along with that.


    But, Skr wasn''t in line to be the next beta or in a position for her wolf to be needed like that. So


    why did shee early, why was it necessary, what happened?" She looks back at me, I''m pretty


    sure she set me up with that question.


    This is an answer that I want to give her, but ites with a nightmare I don''t want the guys to


    know. Something I have been avoiding telling her since the day we met. She knows it, too.


    She actually showed up when I received some of the scars on my back. I closed my eyes inside my


    wolf''s head. I didn''t want to see their expressions through her very clear vision at that revtion.


    "She showed up because you were being attacked didn''t she?" Cameron whispered, the first to


    catch on. He''s leaning forward, elbows on his knees. He looks up slowly waiting for my answer.


    It''s what I always thought, but my wolf and I never discussed it. She nods her head in agreement.


    "WHAT?!" My brother jumps up and shouts. "It was so bad your wolf had to show up early?! Damnit


    Skr, wily didn''t you say anything to anyone?" He''s shaking so bad and his eyes keep changing


    from gray to ck, showing his wolf is fighting toe out. He''s running his fingers in his hair and


    pulling at it so hard it''s standing up in certain ces.


    My wolf lets out a warning growl, nothing offensive, just a warning to his wolf to get him in check


    Oliver jumps up and ces a hand on his shoulder to try and help calm him down. "Dude, she


    doesn''t need this right now. She''s got her reasons for not going to anyone and you getting all angry


    and huffy is not going to get you the answers that you want.


    Mateo is breathing hard and struggling with his temper. I can feel the anger, worry and torment all


    rolling off of him in waves.


    We need to help or he''s going to rage and tear this ce apart and the rest of your friends are


    going to get hurt trying to stop him. His wolf is having a hard time controlling both of their emotions.


    My wolf is pleading for me to go to him. His wolf needs her, needs thefort of his little sister. I''m


    still angry, but I get what she is saying. His anger is because of my situation and only I can calm


    him.