My Viins Episode 056


    15. The Fools of the Boat Horned Inn (3)


    My heart is filled with indescribable emotions.


    In Middle World, even if you turn 16, you are treated as an adult.


    So, the current situation, that is, the situation in which the adult Ellen had feelings for the adult Phoenix was nothing strange at all.


    But I am not from this world. I couldn’t help but feel an ufortable feeling that no one in the middle world could understand.


    Phoenix as a murderer who has killed three digits of people and Kim Seung-soo, who has the sensibility of a modern man, seem to collide within me.


    After a moment of silence, Ellen lifted her head and looked up at me.


    The frost on his face had disappeared before he knew it, and an unknown nervousness took its ce.


    Cowardly, I decided to run away from this problem.


    “No matter how you feel, work is work. What if myrades are going to fight and I lie down like that?”


    At my question, Ellen made a mysterious expression.


    Relief or disappointment soon disappeared beneath the surface, and coolness took its ce.


    “Why should I do this in the first ce?” “what? What does that mean, of course.”


    “That’s right. Isn’t this what you do because of your heroic psychology?”


    As I silently narrowed my eyebrows, Ellen fired at me in a sarcastic tone.


    “Did you really like getting attention from the prince and the lord? Or do you feel like a real hero when you get a reputation as a ‘bloody swordsman’?”


    “What kind of bullshit are you talking about all of a sudden?”


    “We finished the request and turned over the evidence of my affair. Why do you dare to go out and look for dangerous ces?”


    “Yeah…


    I was speechless, and Ellen started talking again.


    “And did you forget what we promised? I decided to make money while doing the quest, see the opportunity, get out of the city and head north! But what is it? After going through all that hardship, you are trapped inside the siege again!”


    “Things have changed that much. Prince Ulkar has arrived and soon an army will move in to break the siege. If the operation seeds, we will save the city.”


    “So what do you get? Risking your life for a few more gold coins? Who was it that told you not to risk yourrades’ lives for a few bucks?”


    “You think I’m doing this for money?”


    “I don’t know! What’s certain is that you don’t care about me. You drag them into dangerous situations and only care about other people!”


    “what? You—”


    Your head is hot.


    I sighed deeply to calm my excitement and asked.


    “Are you serious?”


    “what?”


    “I’m putting you in danger and you don’t care?”


    “…I felt that way.”


    “under.”


    Perhaps Ellen wasn’t serious either.


    Since you’re angry, you probably just want to hurt me somehow. These are the words you say without thinking too deeply.


    I understand it rationally, but I can’t ept it emotionally.


    “…no it’s not?”


    “what.”


    “I never tried to put you in danger and I never didn’t care.”


    “Every time I was in danger, I tried to protect you somehow. I always cared about you more than anyone else.”


    ” I am.”


    “I don’t know how you felt. But really – it wasn’t easy. It wasn’t easy. When I was Kim Seung-soo, I did things that I couldn’t even dream of.


    “I always thought of you, not me.”


    “I really didn’t know that either. Giving my life to save someone is something only firefighters can do. I’ve never been like that in my life, and I didn’t think I’d ever be.”


    I poured out the words I had stored in my heart without even knowing what I was talking about.


    “Of course, I was afraid I would regret it. I’m afraid I’ll regret it again after hesitating like an asshole. I don’t even want you to know But—the whale didn’t want to hear that from you, either?”


    “…I am”


    Ellen stuttered for a moment before licking her lips silently, then shutting her mouth.


    short silence.


    After sweeping my hair once, I put on a helmet and put on a helmet.


    “done. I am tired too.”


    “…what?”


    “I’m tired of covering you. It annoys me to act unrestrained, and I hate seeing other people treat me badly.”


    Oh, I made a mistake.


    Throwing sharp words to hurt was no different from Ellen and me.


    “What am I?”


    Ellen’s pale pink lips trembled.


    Even though I knew I had to quit, I couldn’t calm my anger. Has my mental age gotten younger along with my body?


    “What did you do? Ignored, ridiculed and treated as an idiot. Like someone determined to ruin other people’s moods.”


    “…you said you would be careful. And I didn’t do it on purpose, my way of speaking was original.”


    “Yes, I guess. what do i know about you Do you always meditate on yourself? You know me well about yourself.” At my sarcastic remarks, Ellen shook her tightly clenched fist and struggled to open her mouth.


    “…you you. You can’t do this to me.”


    “What can I not do? You talk freely to people.”


    “It’s not like that for you. Why why are you fucking?”


    His eyes drooped slightly, and his voice seemed to fade.


    Let’s stop Kim Seung-soo.


    Apologize for being harsh, then pat him on the shoulder.


    Then, I’ll squirt tears and snot, so let’s throw in a joke so that it doesn’t feel awkward.


    But the voice that came out of my mouth was still cold.


    “Are you going to stay like this until the end?”


    “What am I?”


    “…ha. I’m going.”


    “Wait a minute. The talk isn’t over yet.”


    “People wait. You know whether to rest or not.”


    “who.”


    “what.”


    “Who are you waiting for? Are they really that important?”


    “They are important people. Maybe not to you, but they are my colleagues. Grania and Arnal also decided toe.”


    Then Ellen opened her mouth as if she had heard a terrible sound.


    “…’my’ colleagues?”


    “Yes, my ‘mates’.”


    Seeing the hardened expression on his face, I frowned and added:


    “What else are youining about?”


    “How are you?”


    “Mr. Grania Arnal Luke are all colleagues who shared life and death. You may have thought of them as just something to vent your anger on, but they are all precious colleagues to me.”


    By the time I finished my words, Ellen’s wide-open eyes were already watery.


    “How are you?”


    “…what?”


    “How can you say that?”


    The setting sun oveps with the thin clouds and ripples like waves.


    The light that came in through the window was wet and staggered over Ellen’s blue eyes.


    “My colleague… you now. What are you talking about?”


    “Your colleague is me, you bastard….” As soon as the words were finished, the guy began to shed heavy tears. Then, he shook his shoulders and sobbed sadly.


    “Ugh uh uh uh uh uh…” Ellen sat down as if copsing and hugged my knee.


    I watched him quietly, then got down on one knee and put my hand on his shoulder.


    No, I tried to raise my hand, but I clenched my fist.


    What I realized after spending one night with Daria is that ‘kindness’ is rare in this world.


    Smiling kindly and showing good intentions to strangers was an act only suitable for priests.


    Seeing that Daria took interest in my actions ording to mymon sense, wouldn’t it mean that the world is just as harsh?


    Maybe it was my fault that Ellen was attracted to me.


    It must have been a strange experience for Ellen to have a stranger approach her without malice, be friendly and protect her.


    Even unconsciously, I treated Ellen like a niece, so she might have misunderstood the affection that was buried in my words and actions.


    “Huh uh uh uh uh.”


    I finally got up in front of Ellen, who was crying sadly.


    …yes, this would be better.


    Wouldn’t it be rather mean to act kindly while giving ambiguous space while clearly knowing the guy’s feelings?


    I walked out of the room with heavy steps.


    widely.


    The door was closed, but Ellen’s cries grew clearer rather than lessened.


    “No, what kind of bullshit is that?”


    As I fiercely opened my eyes, the guardmander also narrowed his brows.


    “You speak harshly. Be polite.”


    “You’re polite, why do you ignore all my words and say things like that?”


    When anger lingered in my voice, Mr. Luke quickly stepped in and dissuaded me.


    “Phoenix-kun, calm down. I was so excited.”


    “No, I’m not excited- ha.”


    I took off my helmet and got up from my seat.


    The well-armed guard officers sent ferocious nces at me, but as soon as they met my red eyes, they looked away.


    “Get out of the way, you bastards.”


    “Uh 99


    I pushed the soldiers with my shoulder and left the guard barracks.


    Grania and Mr. Arnal Luke followed, but I shook my head and stopped them.


    “… Ha O}.”


    They left the inn behind Ellen, who was shedding tears, but the prepared operation failed miserably.


    Even after two hours and three hours passed after the sun went down, the intruder did not move.


    At first, I thought it wasn’t moving because of the variables I had created. It was judged that Prince Ulkar’s entry into the city had an effect on the insider’s strategy.


    But the reality was different.


    About thirty minutes ago. While waiting at the guard barracks, there was no news even after a while, so I walked around the city in frustration.


    By the way, the guards were all over the salt castle.


    The situation was questionable, so he questioned the head of the guard. Information is leaked.


    “Ah, such a dog…”


    I clearly asked not to inform the lord of the castle, but you gave the information to the lord of the castle? In my mind, I really wanted to lose.


    No, if you think about it, it’s my mistake. It was foolish to even think that the captain of the guard would follow my words 100%.


    The head of the guard is the god of the castle. It’s only natural to think of the lord as the top priority while carrying out missions. I’m an asshole for not thinking of that.


    My head gets cold as the hem of my short cloak flutters in the wind blowing from the sea…


    Now, how do I get the ‘unveiled position’? It’s too risky to let things go ording to the scenario.


    …was it better? Is it safer to just go on as it is, rather than recklessly changing the future to create a variable?


    no no If you know the future, you should use it. I can’t just be passive like this forever. You have to take what will benefit you. Isn’t it a decisive advantage to catch the ‘unveiled position’ early?


    Do you just run into a game where you know your identity anyway? …Uh no. No matter how you think about it, that’s even crazier.


    oh my head hurts Nothing is going to work out right.


    “Oh, Phoenix Brother!”


    ” hmm?”


    I followed the voice and turned my head to see a young man with messy brown hair approaching me with a smile.


    “Parrell?”


    “lol. It’s been a while brother. I heard that your sister owes you money.”


    Unlike her older sister, Pharrell, Grania’s younger brother, is a very cheerful guy.


    If I had to put it in one word, it would be a typical ‘in-sa’ that makes friends wherever I go because I’m friendly.


    Thest time I drank, I sang with excitement, but I remember being surprised because I liked listening to it more than I thought.


    It is said that his javelin skill is very good, which does not suit his slim body.


    I had never seen him throw a spear, but looking back at the battle at the pier, it seems that he was a mercenary who managed to do enough for one person.


    Iughed and shook my head.


    “How are you helping each other?”


    “I have heard it all. You must have shed a lot of blood to save your fallen sister.”


    “Who is it?”


    “Is Arnal like that?”


    Then it is.


    “But what are you doing here?”


    “I was bored, so I followed the messenger. I just wanted to see my older sister’s face.”


    Come to think of it, Farel and Gilius were still attached to the SS.


    Well, if Grania kicked them out as soon as they returned, it would be too obvious that they were holding them hostage. After staying in the SS for a while, they will be sent to the guards or gate guards. or end the contract.


    …for a moment. bodyguard?


    “Uh-why are you looking at me like that?”


    “What do you do in the SS?”


    “I just do chores. asionally patrols or guards stand by.”


    “Are there guards? In the salt castle?”


    In response to my questionable question, Farrell put on an ‘Oops’ expression.


    “Uh brother, I can’t tell anyone about this, can I?”


    “why?”


    “Why is it because if themander of the guards or the militarymander finds out, it will bepletely fucked up.”


    I wanted to ask more questions, but the SS messenger came out of the guards barracks, so I had no choice but to let Pharrell go.


    The bodyguards… the bodyguards.


    The troubles that started from then continued until the guards dispersed without sess and returned to the inn in Boatgo-dong.


    What woke me up from deep thought was the conversation between Mr. Luke and Daria.


    “What do you mean now?”


    “yes? Didn’t Ellen go with you?”


    “…what?”


    With a thump, my heart felt like it was sinking.


    Mr. Luke urged Daria in an angry voice.


    “Miss Ellen decided to stay in the room, what are you talking about!”


    “Eh, right after Mr. Poi and Mr. Luke left with the mercenaries, Ms. Ellen also left?”


    “Where did you go and leave?”


    Daria responded with a slightly pale face to Mr. Luke’s unfamiliar appearance.


    “I couldn’t ask for anything else. I hate talking to you. Of course I thought you were following Poe and Luke.”


    “Have you been in such a mess…”


    Ellen- disappeared?


    Why the hell…


    I thought my legs would loosen up so I sat down on a chair at the bar.


    “Heh heh.”


    I’m out of breath.


    Suddenly, the scenery of the amusement park passed before my eyes.